When I Say I Love You More

When I Say I Love You More

“When I say I love you more, I don’t mean I love you more than you love me. I mean I love you more than the bad days ahead of us. I love you more than any fight we will ever have. I love you more than the distance between us. I love you more than any obstacle that could ever try and come between us. I love you the most.”

– Anonymous

– Photo Credits: Tumblr

BiteSize #1

BiteSize #1

What if I told you, maybe it’s your choice? What if you chose to not be independent?

And then it struck me. Maybe it’s true, maybe it’s me. It’s not that I have not been given a chance, but because I’ve been so comfortable so I never fought for anything. Maybe I’ve never fought because of the fear of rejection, the fear or hearing “no”. So maybe, this time I’ll try.

Because everyone will care for themselves first, and you cannot expect anyone to take care of you. You have to fight for what you want.

And so, this time, I’ll try.

An Open Letter To The Love Of My Life

An Open Letter To The Love Of My Life

“Dear sweetheart,

A year ago you walked into my life and I haven’t been the same since. You are the love that came without warning. You had my heart before I could say no.

I originally wasn’t looking for a relationship, but you came and swept me off my feet. No matter how hard I tried to push you away, you always came back. I don’t know why you did because I’m a pain in the ass, but I’m glad because if you didn’t I wouldn’t have found my confidant, best friend, the love of my life.

You’re here for me through everything. Whenever I have a bad day you’re the first person I turn to because nothing is more comforting than being wrapped in your embrace and listening to you tell me everything is going to be okay. Sometimes when I’m being irrational (which is actually a lot) you tell me and I always protest, but you’re always right. You don’t even have to say much, but just knowing that you’re here by my side through everything is enough.

You make me a better person. I hate the phrase “better half” in a relationship because I believe that people in a relationship should be their own person, but you help me be the best possible version of myself. You are always on the sidelines cheering me on, no matter what crazy project I decide to take on next. Watching you succeed makes my heart happy. Nothing inspires me more than my love succeeding and conquering his goals. You’re my rock.

You inspire me immensely. You have a huge heart and would help anybody if you could. You don’t know this, but your mom has told me stories about you doing random acts of kindness that makes me love you even more. You’re the most genuine person I have ever met and tell people exactly how you feel about them. You don’t sugar coat anything and that’s a blessing in disguise for me. You’re smart, driven and passionate. That’s everything I was looking for and more.

Of course we fight, but what relationship doesn’t have bickering moments? They say love is blind, but it’s not. Love is all-seeing and accepting. Even though we both have flaws and irritate each other constantly, at the end of the day we accept each other for who we are. Love is seeing all the flaws and blemishes and accepting them. Love is recognizing all the fears and insecurities, and knowing your job is to comfort. Love is working through the painful times because you know your significant other is worth it. Infatuation is fragile and will shatter when life gets rough. Love is strong and it strengthens because it is real. Let me tell you, you’re worth it completely.

I can’t wait until we have our own house 10 years from now and we can nit-pick each other all the time while cooking dinner and watching reruns of Friends. Nothing excites me more than going through all of the stages of life with the love of my life by my side.

I love you for all that you are, all that you have been, and all you’re yet to be.

Love always,

Your girlfriend”

– Melanie Tunaitis
Photo Credits: Tumblr

I Hope You’re Happy, Because Happiness; That’s All That Matters

I Hope You’re Happy, Because Happiness; That’s All That Matters

To the girl who didn’t love him well,

I hope you’re happier now. I hope you’re happier and that it really was good riddance to you that he left. Sometimes I wonder how someone can praise a person they love so intensely when they’re in love, only for him to become the most terrible person on earth once the relationship ends. But then I realized, it doesn’t matter.

I hope you’re happier now. I hope you know that your existence has hurt me deeply, and so have your actions. Maybe that will make you happier, and if so, I will tell that to you. Yes you’ve hurt me, and I wished I’ve never known all that I do. But I’ve learnt to let it all go and not allow you to affect me any further. I hope you do too.

I hope you’re happier now. Because it’s time to move on and live your life happily. If it really was good riddance, good on you, because you’ve finally found someone else who knows how to treat you better. I hope he treats you well. I hope he mends the scars on your heart. I hope he treats you as how you think you deserve. Because that’s all that matters. I hope you do well in life, and I hope you’re happier now. Because I am.

I Hope You’re Happier Now

I Hope You’re Happier Now

I still wonder if you think about me like how I still think about you.

The way your fingers brush against the outline of my face, while you slowly push my hair behind my ears, the way you look into my eyes, and the way your lips caress mine.

Sleepless nights, I often wonder what went wrong. I lay in bed, eyes wide opened, thinking about the good times we had. We were happy, weren’t we? But then you told me that you were tired, that it was difficult, that I was difficult. Was I?

Three months later, I hear from our friends that you found someone new.

I am not sure if I am ready to accept that. I don’t know what I would do if I see you and your new someone on the streets. Should I hide, or act like I don’t know you? And what if our eyes met, would you look away?

I don’t think my heart would be able to handle any of this. The thought of it breaks me. What if I see you looking at her with much more love in your eyes than how you used to look at me? And what if I see you kissing her? How do I look at you without feeling the soft touch of your lips?

I started going out with someone. I don’t know if I actually like him, or if i’m trying to fill the emptiness in my heart. It felt like a part of me died the day you told me you wanted to end it, end us. I tell all my friends that he is the nicest person on earth, and I might really like him, but I don’t even know if I really feel so.

And I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to hug him without feeling your touch. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to kiss him without thinking of your lips. Or anyone else.

But well, I hope you’re happier now.

Or at least, I am trying.

I’m still trying.

Fall In Love With Someone Who Makes You Laugh

Fall In Love With Someone Who Makes You Laugh

“Relationships can, and should be the reasons why we are so incredibly happy.

We should love life, and our significant others. And the people we choose to fall for should make us celebrate living even more than we would on our own, because now we have someone to celebrate with. You need to fall for someone who makes you laugh. Someone who brings the best out of you in every situation, who always gives you a reason to smile. Someone who drags you out of your worst moods and who can save you from your deepest pain.

Fall in love with someone who reminds you, every single day, what a joy it is to be alive.

Fall in love with a person who’s going to crack jokes at the worst times, who’s going to connect with your sense of humor, who’s going to turn your anxiousness into ease, your fear into confidence. Someone who will love you for you, and keep you that happy, carefree you for the rest of your days together. Because our time on earth will be short, and only laughter and love will get us through.”

– Thought Catalog, Marisa Donnelly

I Want To Be The One You Come Home To

I Want To Be The One You Come Home To

“Home is not a place, but two eyes and a beating heart.”

I want to be the one who cooks you a sumptuous meal after a long day at work.

I want to be the naggy old lady who reminds you to stay kind and humble despite our mini successes.

I want to be the woman who holds you rooted to the ground and carries you up when you achieve something you deserve.

And even when you don’t, I want to be the one who you’ll run to for a hug just because there will be days where you’re tired of life.

I want to be the one to teach your (our) children the right values in life, and to guide them.

I want to be the one who takes your parents out for good meals and buys them gifts.

I want you to do that for my parents too.

I want to be the old and wrinkly lady whom you’ll still say “you’re beautiful” to even after more than 50 years of being together.

And regardless of all the possible hardship and difficulties we might face in time to come, I want to be the one you’ll come running home to.

Photo Credits: Pinterest

What If We Never Met

What If We Never Met

I’ve always wondered how life would be like if I had made different choices along the way. If I found a job right after I graduated and never got a chance to join my current workplace. If you broke up with her earlier, and met someone else before you met me. If he came into my life before you did. Would things be different now?

Before I met you, I was that girl who felt strongly for this: If things didn’t work out because the timing was wrong, maybe he just isn’t the one. “He had to go overseas so we broke up.” – That was probably because you just didn’t love each other enough. “He was young and wild, it was difficult to hold on to such a relationship.” – Maybe it’s just that both of you are not compatible.

Because the truth about the timing being wrong is that it’s nothing more than the world’s flimsiest reason not to try.” – Heidi Priebe

But maybe.. I was wrong.

After I met you, I became the girl who realise that every action I make would have a consequence, and that could mean we might have never met. Time mattered. And still does. If I studied an extra year at school, or if I continued with my previous job which I loved dearly, or if you went on to do something else that interests you more than your current job, we would have never met. Just one small decision; that could change our lives forever…

I believe that there is someone out there for everyone. There has to be. Despite geographical boundaries, age, time, and all the other possible differences, you will eventually meet someone special. And with that being said, even if we have had made different choices, our paths might still cross one day, if it was meant to be.

But the slightest thought of us never meeting each other scares me. In fact, the thought of us meeting 10 years later instead of now scares me as well. Now is the time we fall bravely in love, the time we allow ourselves to be vulnerable to someone; so vulnerable that you think you’re going crazy, but jump in head on anyways, because.. love. I’ve never felt so happy. I’ve never been more sure. So sure of taking on an uncertainty, because I know you’ll be here not just for me, but also with me, and we will brave through whatever comes together. And maybe that is enough. And with this fuzzy feeling in my heart, I’m glad for all the decisions you and I have made in our lives, which brought us together so that we could meet and fall in love.

To the future. Our future.

Someday

Someday

“I hope someday I’d have the chance to bring you to dinners with my girlfriends and they’ll talk about how lucky I am to have caught you. I hope someday you’ll bring me to one of your family parties. I’d be dressed up in a nice cocktail dress and you’d be suited up in that tuxedo, and your cousins would tell us how good we look together. And you’d just spend the entire night telling me how proud you are of me.”

Credits: http://thoughtcatalog.com/femar-malones/2016/05/i-hope-one-day-we-can-meet-again-and-give-us-a-chance/ – Femar Malones