BiteSize #1

BiteSize #1

What if I told you, maybe it’s your choice? What if you chose to not be independent?

And then it struck me. Maybe it’s true, maybe it’s me. It’s not that I have not been given a chance, but because I’ve been so comfortable so I never fought for anything. Maybe I’ve never fought because of the fear of rejection, the fear or hearing “no”. So maybe, this time I’ll try.

Because everyone will care for themselves first, and you cannot expect anyone to take care of you. You have to fight for what you want.

And so, this time, I’ll try.

Fall In Love With Someone Who Makes You Laugh

Fall In Love With Someone Who Makes You Laugh

“Relationships can, and should be the reasons why we are so incredibly happy.

We should love life, and our significant others. And the people we choose to fall for should make us celebrate living even more than we would on our own, because now we have someone to celebrate with. You need to fall for someone who makes you laugh. Someone who brings the best out of you in every situation, who always gives you a reason to smile. Someone who drags you out of your worst moods and who can save you from your deepest pain.

Fall in love with someone who reminds you, every single day, what a joy it is to be alive.

Fall in love with a person who’s going to crack jokes at the worst times, who’s going to connect with your sense of humor, who’s going to turn your anxiousness into ease, your fear into confidence. Someone who will love you for you, and keep you that happy, carefree you for the rest of your days together. Because our time on earth will be short, and only laughter and love will get us through.”

– Thought Catalog, Marisa Donnelly

What If We Never Met

What If We Never Met

I’ve always wondered how life would be like if I had made different choices along the way. If I found a job right after I graduated and never got a chance to join my current workplace. If you broke up with her earlier, and met someone else before you met me. If he came into my life before you did. Would things be different now?

Before I met you, I was that girl who felt strongly for this: If things didn’t work out because the timing was wrong, maybe he just isn’t the one. “He had to go overseas so we broke up.” – That was probably because you just didn’t love each other enough. “He was young and wild, it was difficult to hold on to such a relationship.” – Maybe it’s just that both of you are not compatible.

Because the truth about the timing being wrong is that it’s nothing more than the world’s flimsiest reason not to try.” – Heidi Priebe

But maybe.. I was wrong.

After I met you, I became the girl who realise that every action I make would have a consequence, and that could mean we might have never met. Time mattered. And still does. If I studied an extra year at school, or if I continued with my previous job which I loved dearly, or if you went on to do something else that interests you more than your current job, we would have never met. Just one small decision; that could change our lives forever…

I believe that there is someone out there for everyone. There has to be. Despite geographical boundaries, age, time, and all the other possible differences, you will eventually meet someone special. And with that being said, even if we have had made different choices, our paths might still cross one day, if it was meant to be.

But the slightest thought of us never meeting each other scares me. In fact, the thought of us meeting 10 years later instead of now scares me as well. Now is the time we fall bravely in love, the time we allow ourselves to be vulnerable to someone; so vulnerable that you think you’re going crazy, but jump in head on anyways, because.. love. I’ve never felt so happy. I’ve never been more sure. So sure of taking on an uncertainty, because I know you’ll be here not just for me, but also with me, and we will brave through whatever comes together. And maybe that is enough. And with this fuzzy feeling in my heart, I’m glad for all the decisions you and I have made in our lives, which brought us together so that we could meet and fall in love.

To the future. Our future.

The Non-Relationship

The Non-Relationship

“13. The one you placed on the pedestal

Sure, the guy who took me to the five-star restaurant, gave me the best orgasm of my life and made me laugh until I cried was great. But he’ll never be Jake.

For all intents and purposes, we all have a Jake. He — or she — is a past love we’ve planted on a throne that no future person could ever reach.”


I’m Alive

I’m Alive

Some days I forget to be grateful.

I get off from work, rush back home for dinner, do a quick workout, shower, and go to bed.

There’s no time for me to think. No time for me to reflect. No time for me to take a breather and just not think about anything.

I fall into deep slumber.

I wake up the next morning, jump off bed, rush to work, and the day starts. Emails after emails, powerpoints after powerpoints, meetings after meetings.

The day ends and the same routine continues.

Today I left office earlier than usual. I had dinner with my mom. And now I finally have time to pen this down. I start scrolling Instagram, and I see happy couples, people spending time with their families, people traveling. And then it hit me, I haven’t felt grateful in a long time.

Grateful that I have a family to spend time with, grateful for friends, grateful that I have a pretty interesting job, grateful that I get to travel, grateful for food on the table.

And now I will spend the rest of the night being grateful because I’m breathing, I’m living, I’m loving, very well.

Someone Who Is Worthy

In a brief conversation, a man asked a lady he was pursuing this question “What kind of man are you looking for?”

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking “Do you really want to know? Reluctant, he said yes.

She began to expound, “As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can’t do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my own household without the help of any man.. or any woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, what can you bring to the table.”

The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated that she wasn’t referring to money. “I need something more. I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life.”

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms and asked her to explain.

“I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally because I need conversation and a mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple minded man.

I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked.. believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.

I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don’t need a financial burden.

I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded.

I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships. Lies and game-playing are not my idea of a strong man.

I need a man who is family oriented. One who can be a leader, a priest and provider to the lives entrusted to him by God.

I need someone whom I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive, but he just needs to be worthy.

And by the way, I am not looking for him. He will find me. He will recognize himself in me. He may not be able to explain the connection, but he will always be drawn to me. God made women to be a help-mate for men. I can’t help a man if he doesn’t help himself.”

When she finished her spiel, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said “You’re asking for a lot.”

She replied, “I am worth a lot.”

– Facebook