I Hope You’re Happier Now

I Hope You’re Happier Now

I still wonder if you think about me like how I still think about you.

The way your fingers brush against the outline of my face, while you slowly push my hair behind my ears, the way you look into my eyes, and the way your lips caress mine.

Sleepless nights, I often wonder what went wrong. I lay in bed, eyes wide opened, thinking about the good times we had. We were happy, weren’t we? But then you told me that you were tired, that it was difficult, that I was difficult. Was I?

Three months later, I hear from our friends that you found someone new.

I am not sure if I am ready to accept that. I don’t know what I would do if I see you and your new someone on the streets. Should I hide, or act like I don’t know you? And what if our eyes met, would you look away?

I don’t think my heart would be able to handle any of this. The thought of it breaks me. What if I see you looking at her with much more love in your eyes than how you used to look at me? And what if I see you kissing her? How do I look at you without feeling the soft touch of your lips?

I started going out with someone. I don’t know if I actually like him, or if i’m trying to fill the emptiness in my heart. It felt like a part of me died the day you told me you wanted to end it, end us. I tell all my friends that he is the nicest person on earth, and I might really like him, but I don’t even know if I really feel so.

And I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to hug him without feeling your touch. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to kiss him without thinking of your lips. Or anyone else.

But well, I hope you’re happier now.

Or at least, I am trying.

I’m still trying.

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Fall In Love With Someone Who Makes You Laugh

Fall In Love With Someone Who Makes You Laugh

“Relationships can, and should be the reasons why we are so incredibly happy.

We should love life, and our significant others. And the people we choose to fall for should make us celebrate living even more than we would on our own, because now we have someone to celebrate with. You need to fall for someone who makes you laugh. Someone who brings the best out of you in every situation, who always gives you a reason to smile. Someone who drags you out of your worst moods and who can save you from your deepest pain.

Fall in love with someone who reminds you, every single day, what a joy it is to be alive.

Fall in love with a person who’s going to crack jokes at the worst times, who’s going to connect with your sense of humor, who’s going to turn your anxiousness into ease, your fear into confidence. Someone who will love you for you, and keep you that happy, carefree you for the rest of your days together. Because our time on earth will be short, and only laughter and love will get us through.”

– Thought Catalog, Marisa Donnelly

I Want To Be The One You Come Home To

I Want To Be The One You Come Home To

“Home is not a place, but two eyes and a beating heart.”

I want to be the one who cooks you a sumptuous meal after a long day at work.

I want to be the naggy old lady who reminds you to stay kind and humble despite our mini successes.

I want to be the woman who holds you rooted to the ground and carries you up when you achieve something you deserve.

And even when you don’t, I want to be the one who you’ll run to for a hug just because there will be days where you’re tired of life.

I want to be the one to teach your (our) children the right values in life, and to guide them.

I want to be the one who takes your parents out for good meals and buys them gifts.

I want you to do that for my parents too.

I want to be the old and wrinkly lady whom you’ll still say “you’re beautiful” to even after more than 50 years of being together.

And regardless of all the possible hardship and difficulties we might face in time to come, I want to be the one you’ll come running home to.

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