What If We Never Met

What If We Never Met

I’ve always wondered how life would be like if I had made different choices along the way. If I found a job right after I graduated and never got a chance to join my current workplace. If you broke up with her earlier, and met someone else before you met me. If he came into my life before you did. Would things be different now?

Before I met you, I was that girl who felt strongly for this: If things didn’t work out because the timing was wrong, maybe he just isn’t the one. “He had to go overseas so we broke up.” – That was probably because you just didn’t love each other enough. “He was young and wild, it was difficult to hold on to such a relationship.” – Maybe it’s just that both of you are not compatible.

Because the truth about the timing being wrong is that it’s nothing more than the world’s flimsiest reason not to try.” – Heidi Priebe

But maybe.. I was wrong.

After I met you, I became the girl who realise that every action I make would have a consequence, and that could mean we might have never met. Time mattered. And still does. If I studied an extra year at school, or if I continued with my previous job which I loved dearly, or if you went on to do something else that interests you more than your current job, we would have never met. Just one small decision; that could change our lives forever…

I believe that there is someone out there for everyone. There has to be. Despite geographical boundaries, age, time, and all the other possible differences, you will eventually meet someone special. And with that being said, even if we have had made different choices, our paths might still cross one day, if it was meant to be.

But the slightest thought of us never meeting each other scares me. In fact, the thought of us meeting 10 years later instead of now scares me as well. Now is the time we fall bravely in love, the time we allow ourselves to be vulnerable to someone; so vulnerable that you think you’re going crazy, but jump in head on anyways, because.. love. I’ve never felt so happy. I’ve never been more sure. So sure of taking on an uncertainty, because I know you’ll be here not just for me, but also with me, and we will brave through whatever comes together. And maybe that is enough. And with this fuzzy feeling in my heart, I’m glad for all the decisions you and I have made in our lives, which brought us together so that we could meet and fall in love.

To the future. Our future.

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I’d Choose You

I’d Choose You

“Do you love me?” He asked.

I started thinking, what is love really? How would I know if I love him, or if I don’t? The fact is, I don’t know. And maybe I’ll never know.

But what I do know is, love is an emotion so deep. It’s not just words or actions. It’s much more; both words and actions, thoughts, consideration, kindness and effort.

Love is magical and not an easy occurrence. It is not a happen-to-be but a tremendous effort made to make it happen, to make it last, and to make it thrive.

And my answer to him was, “honestly, I don’t know. I don’t know how love should feel like, and I don’t know if I love you. But what I do know is, if I have to choose someone to love, I’d choose you.”

And maybe that in itself is love. Maybe that is enough.

“I’d choose you.”